- An attitude is a hypothetical construct that represents an individual's degree of like or dislike for something. Attitudes are generally positive or negative views of a person, place, thing, or event— this is often referred to as the attitude object. People can also be conflicted or ambivalent toward an object, meaning that they simultaneously possess both positive and negative attitudes toward the item in question.
I recognize that, over the last several years, it has become an unfortunate but easily fallen into habit to focus more on the negativity of mundane life and that there is no possible way such a focus could not affect everything. The more narrow my focus became on all the things that were going wrong, the easier it became to set aside my spiritual connection to my ancestors, my gods and my self. The more things went wrong, the less inclined I was to remember that I was failing to maintain my balance and the further into negativity my attitude sank.
Even with the move back to the Lower Mainland, that narrow, mundane, negative focus has remained with me ... causing me to adopt a stoic but defeatist attitude towards my life, my self, and my future. Although I have made a few efforts to move beyond my hermit's persona, I cannot honestly say that I haven't approached each without a measure of negativity. Not in the outings or the people themselves, but rather in the uncomfortable knot of emotion that (even now, just thinking about it) roils in my abdomen at the prospect of going outside as I approach the time of departure and how very often I have allowed it to dissuade me from making a change.
Since doing a Crafting for a friend before the turn of the calendar, I have been experiencing a dramatic shift in my attitude and I find that, the more positive it becomes, the more I catch myself thinking about things I can do to bring my spiritual life back into my day to day the way it should be.
Attitude is that component of one's self that will either set you up for success, or doom you to defeat long before you ever begin whatever it is you wish to do ... whether it be spiritual practice, spellwork, or just getting out of bed in the morning. Everything else that accompanies a pagan existence, the tools and trappings that we all love so very much (altars, statuary, tools, incenses, herbs, garb, etc.), are secondary to the individual's own heart and mind and, if your attitude is trapped in the dark, there's not going to be much impulse to do anything about it. Good intentions don't get things moving .. and, saddled with a negative attitude, I didn't want to do much.
As a result of that Working, my attitude has been undergoing a powerful change in a very short space of time. A good reminder that the crafter is influenced by the Craft they practice. And, as my personal outlook on everything brightens, I find myself seeking more and more ways to reintroduce to my daily life the spiritual practices that I allowed to slip away. Rather than try to return to the old activities I used to engage in, in years long gone now, I feel it would be better to try acknowledge that I am not the same person I was then and to discover new ways to grow.
I no longer feel like I need to wait "until things get better" to reconnect with my ancestors, my gods and my self ... I need to renew my relationship with each in order FOR things to get better. The more I allow my brightening attitude to move me towards a new path where balance is restored between the physical resident of this life and it's mundane requirements (work, bills, money, etc) and my much neglected need to have a connection with something beyond myself, the brighter still I believe my attitude will become. Moving me to yet greater positivity and manifesting it into the mundane.
Attitude alone, however, will only take me so far ... but that is a tale for the next instalment.